In Need,,,

Sense… I’m just asking for its sense.
This emptiness that’s inside me
grows everyday…
It darkens my world,
It ruins my concentration,
It clogs my rationality.
I should be mad at you, shouldn’t i?
I should be spitting on your face right now.
I shouldn’t even let you look me in the eye..
But actually, it doesn’t even happen
Coz I’m the one who’s not looking.
I don’t know if I should curse or bless
the moments when I see you.
Coz there’s a battle inside me when you’re present.
My heart leaps but my brain gets hot.
My head turns but my eyes fight back.
I can’t justify this feeling, even to myself.
Is it always my fault?
Am I always the villain?
Why can’t they hate you, why always me?
Why am I the center of attention?!?
I’m confused. I don’t know what to think.
If things ended good between us, would I
Be happy now?
Will I be satisfied?
Will I be able to move on and pretend
that nothing happened at all?
I really can’t understand why
I’m affected this much.
When you’re around, I feel and act stupid,
What do you feel when I’m around?
Are you also tensed? Are you nervous?
Oh, well. Why would you?
You don’t possess human feelings, do you?
I bet you don’t even care.
You never ever cared.
And the thing that I need in the world
is just so plain and simple.
But still, it’s not given to me.
I need someone…who cares…

_the12thpoet_