I Hate You

I will say this over and over again...
No one's stupider than me.
I'm the dumbest person alive.
Want to know why?
It's all because of you.
Damn you.
I want to hurt you.
Hurt you much.
To have revenge of what you
did to me.
To have my dignity back.
Coz the moment you came
into my life,
You took it all away...
I'll reiterate this,
You have no right.
What the hell.
Who are you anyway?
Who are you to treat me like this?
Who are you to leave
me in this condition?
Who are you to have
my mind and my heart possessed?
****
You don't deserve me.
I'm not worthy of you.
If only I can delete you
from my memory,
I certainly would.
Coz you're a virus in my system.
I can't work normally.
My God.
I don't know why I'm
still hoping.
Damn it, I'm still dreaming.
Wanting to talk to you,
to be with you.
To have you.
The pain you caused me
is incomparable.
But it seems to keep me alive.
What would happen on the day
that you will go?
That cursed day when you're
destined to leave me?
Can I keep my sanity?
Can I still smile?
Can I still live?
****
Will you remember?
Would I stay in your memory?
If there comes a time
that you pass me by,
Would you recognize me?
Would you remember that
once in your life you met me?
Would you still care?
Have you ever cared?!
I didn't expect that
I'll feel this way.
Oh well, I never expected
anything anyway.
I didn't imagine that I'll
desperately do anything.
Anything to make you stay.
But I'm just human.
I have no magical powers.
****
Time is running out,
Oh yes, it is.
If only I can turn back time.
Turn it back three years
form now.
Then I'll destroy the clock.
So the date will not
move anymore.
So I can see you forever.
I am contented with seeing you.
That's all that I'm asking for.

But it's impossible.

I am still loving you.
Shit.
I hate you.

_the12thpoet_